Cliff Notes

After a highly stressful day I find myself coming here to blog. To be with my thoughts, alone, with no one in need of mama. A lot has gone on in the past few weeks. Soccer is over. I am delighted to reclaim my Saturdays, but it was a great experience for the whole family. It taught us how to encourage and praise another family member, and how to be an observer. S learned a new sport and what it means to be a team mate. Hopefully she'll do it again next year. I know C will for sure and I think we are going to tackle coaching. Well, we'll see when we get there.

My sister got baptized and finished getting her diploma. It felt good to be around the people I've always felt closest to and I am proud of her.

The school business continues. Jog a thons and theme parties and the, you know, just getting them there on time with teeth brushed and hair combed.

Maria made the kids this cute apple picking bag. An idea from another blogger- can't remember the name. But with all the apples we picked at my grandmas, I did make the apple cake. It is VERY yummy and even better a la mode.

It feels good to think of these thoughts when it feels like the roof is caving in on me. I hate it when my kids get sick. Sick to the point where I have to take them to the ER. Even as a nurse, I find its a fine line between when you take your child to the doctor or wait it out at home. I took little E to the ER to just discover what I already know. It's a virus. Not swine flu, but one of many viruses- you take your pick. I was also surprised they didn't test him for H1N1. His symptoms mimic so many others, they just call it viral illness.

This is why I always struggle with giving my littles the flu shot. It's good for the most common viruses- but there are sooo many viruses out there. We got the flu shot this year- and got the flu a week later. And, it went on and on. So, why did I expose them to the preservatives and mercury? Cause I don't want a winter like last year. I'm thinking positive.

But, alas little E looks much better that even 12 hours ago. He just needs mama to give him more loving. We are still learning how to control S's viral induced asthma. She is also learning. So, do I give them the H1N1 vaccination? I don't really know yet. I don't want to. It's a fact they've already been exposed to it and half the school was absent last week due to the flu. Still working it out in my head. All I can say is good hand washing and keep living life.